I’m going to let you in on a little secret…
I don’t know what the hell I’m doing.
The fear is so great that I am paralysed like a deer in the headlights.
It’s a different kind of fear to that though.
I feel like I’ve been walking along a beautiful path, and I can see all this beauty from the top of a cliff, so I just leap.
I’ve leapt INTO the beauty.
But I’m no super woman. I don’t know how to fly! Hell, I don’t even know how to parachute, or paraglide, or do one of those crazy wingsuit BASE jumps – which is exactly what this feels like.
I feel like I’ve entered the world of extreme sports. It should not feel too strange to me, as a former ultrarunner, powerlifter, and strongwoman competitor… but I feel this is more on the fringe.
It’s like I’ve bought the wingsuit, but I haven’t learnt the basics like how to steer it, and how to land, and what to do if things go awry.
It’s like I’ve entered this club for extreme fringe sports, but we’re all on our own paths so we never get to meet each other for the support we think we need.
So I’ve leapt off the cliff, and I’m free falling, and I don’t know if I’m going to plummet to the bottom or if the wingsuit is going to allow me to flow gracefully so I can enjoy the view and be fully engaged with it.
Do I trust the wingsuit? Or do I try to clamber back to the cliff edge and back to safety?
But do you know what’s funny?
The safety is false.
Back on the cliff I know what to expect. This knowing is the safety net. But what’s safe about that? It’s predictable, but it’s not filled with the passion and excitement of being an active player in the view of the amazing terrain.
This false safety net keeps me from taking the wilder option, and I bet it’s holding you back too.
This false safety net is what keeps you exploring new exciting options.
But what if you trusted the wingsuit? What if you were GUARANTEED not to plummet to the rocks below? What if you KNEW with 100% CERTAINTY that you could enjoy the most exhilarating ride of your life IF ONLY you allowed the wingsuit to do its thing?
What if? What if? …
Do you choose the wingsuit or do your prefer to stand on the cliff looking out at the view?
Do you choose to TRUST that things will work out?
Do you choose to TRUST that your GUT INSTINCT is right AT ALL TIMES?
Do you choose the thrill or the predictable outcome?
I don’t know about you, but I really really REALLY want to go for the thrill of the ride, and I’VE ALREADY STEPPED OFF THE GODDAMN CLIFF.
I’m free falling, but there’s that fear popping up telling me to go back to the cliff edge and wait there while the beauty in front of my does it’s thing.
Well I tell you what – That fear can go fuck itself!
This is it!
I’ll either plummet or I’ll have the most incredible experience of my life.
Are you going to join me?
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