You need to give yourself permission to FEEL. Permission to feel through it. Permission to Be In It. Permission to BE.
You think you can just bust your way through this shit? No! That’s not it! That’s not the point! The point is to feel it all.
Be open in your curiosity with it. Keep looking at it, feeling it, seeing how your mind reacts, seeing where it takes you. It IS very interesting, after all, isn’t it? Yes, of course.
Like that curiosity, that eccentric on the other side of the street, that bizarre bazarre filled with so many trinkets with so many stories to tell – this curious feeling ain’t going nowhere until you inspect it, look at it, feel it, and see what stories it has to tell.
No, you can’t write it all out of you, although that will help. You need to FEEL it.
Stories are meant to be FELT. The writing and reading is just a practicality.