My heart is OH so open, and I can feel myself SURRENDER to my soul, as my feet tremble below me, and tears of I-don’t-know-what bubble up.
I want to purge all the sadness, hate, guilt, shame – all of it. I want to violently throw up this deep dark sadness that has me questioning my soul, my reality, my all.
So I do just that.
Sometimes I wonder if I am clinically depressed. If there’s something wrong with me. If I’ll ever see the light again.
But then I remember.
I remember several things.
These memories keep flooding back, and my reality lights up before my very eyes.
There’s nothing wrong with me. There never was. I am exactly as I am meant to be.
And that light? It’s been there all along!
I just got stuck in the twists and turns of my mind, and forgot to open my heart and soul so that I could SEE all the beauty right before my very eyes. It’s all there! AND I get to create EVEN more of it – because that’s my job.
That’s right – it’s my job to create beauty.
How – it’s neither here nor there.
It’s simply a must. A drive. A life force of energy that is within me.
And that is why there is so much contrast between the deep dark sadness and the incredible-by-nature incredible-by-design beauty I see and live in every day.
Because my job is creating beauty – and this lights me up to no end.
And when I don’t do my job – I get lost in the darkness.
There’s nothing in the middle.
So there’s only one thing for me to do then.
I must live in the beauty every single moment of every single day.
I must tune within, CONNECT within, fully express my soul – SURRENDER to my soul, and… well….. If you’re reading this, then you’re on the receiving end 😉
Let me ask you: What is your soul’s calling?
I can be pretty deep at times. I used to be afraid of this. I used to think others would think I am strange for this. That it would be too much. Too intense. Too sacred. Too uncommon.
I’m just owning it now. I go as deep as you are willing to go. I’m also frivolous as hell. There’s not much in between.
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