Thoughts Between Coffees

What’s on my mind these days:

I have not done any journaling in about 2 months. This is a looooong time for me. I am a journal fiend.

I am using up all my words on my fiction novel. It’s a slooooooow process. I can whip out a non fiction book in a week, but stepping into another world and living through other people takes a lot out of me. At the same time, it is immensely fulfilling. So much so, that I have not had to journal. Fiction is soulfuelment™ 🙂

My flute sounds like liquid gold. I got it serviced a couple of weeks ago for the first time in about 2 years. I should do it every year, but it doesn’t take the beating it used to, so for some reason I think that means it needs less maintenance, but that’s not true.

I was having trouble recording my next album, and even got lost down the rabbit hole of looking up new mics etc. But one day I finally realised that the awful sound my mic was picking up was all the keys leaking, things bent out of place, and the old familiar sound of an instrument that is in dire need of a service. Now it’s not only shiny, but the sound pours out of it like liquid gold. I can’t wait to hit the record button again 🙂

I quit bizniz. I guess I opted out a while back, but now I have well and truly quit.

I spent a lot of time wandering round (and thoroughly enjoying, mind you) the rabbit holes of doing bizniz. My bizniz was operating more like a bizniz than a creative person. Now I have full trust that all that shiz is not and was never needed. I am a creative, and that’s all I need to be. I don’t really care about trying to sell shiz. It sells itself whether I am trying or not, so best to give up that which is not soulfuelment.

I quit needing to know anything. I am quite happy trusting that my body and soul knows more than my mind ever will. So I am happy not needing to know any answers.

It’s interesting to see how this pans out in my novel, where the characters frequently discuss things I have literally no understanding of, such as quantum mathematics, gravitational waves (I think – I don’t really know), and the theory of relativity. I failed science in school. And I was ok at maths – until it got all quadratic-y. It’s interesting to see when there is mention of tetryonics, I look it up for 3 minutes, but as I don’t understand a word of it, I quit needing to know, and just make it up.

It feels wild and free flowing and completely irresponsible. And I love it.

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