I knew there was something that needed uncovering. I knew there was something laying there dormant waiting to be released.
And then it happened.
The shit hit the fan.
I’d been so busy living my dream life, living as my soul intends, walking this Earth as my higher self, that I forgot about a very real human element that was holding me back, and preventing me from moving.
You see, lately my soul has been craving stillness. Space. Quiet. And I’ve been living through this, of course. I choose to only do what my soul requires.
I didn’t realise just how shot my CNS was. I didn’t realise just how fried my system was. Of course, this is why I required stillness.
Suddenly it all came to light.
The unworthiness. The guilt. The undeserving. The absolute intensity of feeling like I’d been kicked to the curb, and I well and truly belonged there.
It all came to the surface and I was finally able to cry it out.
But in the pits of despair, I wondered – What next? What next?
I knew I couldn’t be stuck like this – wouldn’t be stuck like this. Of course. And I wanted to shift it sooner rather than later.
But the soul said keep crying. Cry it all out.
And then, once the tears finally began to ease, the soul reminded me to step outside of myself, and see myself through the eyes of my higher self.
And from this view, I could be my higher self, and tell my physical self what to do next.
And the thing?
Keep getting it out. Verbalise it. Write it. Cry even more, if you can.
Get it out.
And as you get it out, you can let it go.
So let it go, I do.
Set it free.
Give it back to where it came from.
You know, there are so many parts of me that need to be retrieved, as I left them behind on my journey to worthlessness.
The sense of self, the pride, the spontaneity, the freedom, the ownership, the power, the Me.
So bit by bit I tell these instances to dissolve back into the universe, and I reclaim those parts of myself that I lost.
And my higher self has stern words to share with me:
Don’t EVER let anyone walk all over you.
Don’t EVER let anyone try to control you.
Don’t EVER let anyone take away ANY aspect of your self.
You are TOO GREAT for that, TOO IMPORTANT for that, TOO RELEVANT, and ABSOLUTELY ESSENTIAL in your role here on Earth.
You are loved and supported UNCONDITIONALLY as the universal laws dictate and decree.
Don’t you EVER forget that.
Even if you forget why you’re here and wtf you’re doing, don’t you EVER forget the importance of You.